Was clearing out my photobucket just a little while ago. Found this screencap saved on there. From way back in December so long ago, back when I had a myspace. A little comment I had left my ex after an argument. It was my attempt at making amends. Ive never liked to argue, but when i did, man was i good at it. Even i'll admit it, im kind of an asshole. Honestly. I read it over and over to myself. Thinking why things went sour when they did. I know it was both our faults, but I know I was the one who took it to that point, with out getting into detail. I'm not regretting my loss after we broke up or anything, when things don't work they don't work and I understand that 1000%. So im fine with it and definitely have moved on. Plus I've always been the type to easily be able to brush things and people out of my life without a single shred of doubt or even thought of looking back, so it didn't hurt me. Call me soul-less if u will. Idc. Just makes me wonder what ever happened to the nicer side of me like the comment showed. Judging from this it's obviously still in there somewhere. Does it take a certain thing or person to bring it out of me? Or am I doomed to be a heartless ass forever? Girls come and go, so do friends. I know neither one of them will stick around forever, so I never get too dependent. And if I do I keep the mentality of 'nothing lasts forever.' This way I won't b surprised when things go south. But is that really the right way to live? Some applaud it because they've been hurt by things/people and sometimes wish they too could care as little about it and just keep on trucking thru life as unaffected as I do. From an inside perspective i question the thought of what about the time that I find something real. That really is gunna be forever. Is my own ignorance gunna make me oblivious to that and will I miss a great opportunity? Or have I already and didn't even know it. Either way, life comes unexpectedly and u can't prepare for it. So here's me hoping that my cards are played right and life deals me a good hand.
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